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I’m embarrassed to post this but I’m tired of feeling alone. I just want you to know why I’m hiding, where I’ve been and where I don’t want to go.

Getting it out so I stay.

Just an honest check in. Sorry I’ve been hiding from you I’ve been hiding from me too.

I’ve applied to over 25 places 😭 please let a girl live 😩

GET NARCAN NOW! ITS FREE! SAVE A LIFE, BE PREPARED, PLEASE! I know you’re all wondering how I’m doing, not well. I’ve been hiding from everything and myself, because I can not be alone right now. I’ve been staying with two very kind people who are taking care of me. I just want access to safe housing where I can make my work. If you have any recourses to share please DM on instagram. And to everyone emailing me about orders I drafted my response and I’ll send it soon I’m sorry my housing, safety, therapy and personal well-being are my first priority right now.

I’ve never felt so hopeless. I jsut want my Bean 🐈 back, and nothing can change the fact that’s she gone. Even after almost 3 months I can’t even process this. Please keep caring so something can come from this. I will keep fighting I just need to be strong enough.

Thank you for supporting me so I may have the privledge to learn stone sculpture. I’ve been thinking about gravestones for many years now and a goal of mine is to apprentice under a monument maker. 🪦 It would be an honor for my work to provide others with a sense of permanence and therefore peace; to be a vessel for their grief. Along with my own, I am grateful I’m learning how to create a gravestone so I can make one for Miss Bean. I love you Yolk, it’s still all about you. 🐈 ❤️

3 months and my Brian still can’t process the cruelty, the loos or the grief. I can’t believe this happened and I don’t want to get through this.